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Post by Marisa Brant on Jul 14, 2008 20:13:43 GMT
Marisa was out for a calming walk in the Forbidden Forest. She was not in a good mood. She was about to breakdown so she decided to come where the Students and professors couldn't see her do it. She was generally a calm person but after Aimi had played with her brain and Aaron arrived she was never the same. She found a nice calm place and had her wand ready just in case any creature decided to come out.
She put her head back and felt the breeze. She sat down and started to sort things out. She usually does this when very upset. Her life was a mess right now. She thought of the good times she had in her life and realized there weren't too many. She put her head down and started to cry. I do need to get away she thought to herself. She was too gullible just as Steve had said. She was always gullible. She was in the middle of thinking when she heard a noise. She grabbed her wand and started to move to it.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 6, 2008 17:18:30 GMT
“Yes, it’s fine but I still don’t know why you accepted my offer if you had so much things going on!” Steve told his sister with frown, listening to what he took his sister away from made him slightly guilty. Rachel seemed to quite happy back in a America and she left it all just to come back home to her family, the chances of him doing that where very slim but then again Rachel was a former Ravenclaw. Looking at her, Steve shook his head and then put on his look “I’m going a walk, I’ll talk to you later!” He explained to her and then walked out of his classroom leaving his sister there as she wrote a letter.
Walking through the forest, Steve growled under his breath at his own annoyance over nothing really…well, it was more than nothing. Digging his hands into his pockets he kicked the dirt on the ground and leaned against the tree just trying to think in silence but when does silence ever last? Hearing a noise, Steve narrowed his eyes and looked into the distance but then he shook his head not even bothering to look around, instead he pulled out a cigarette and lit it. Usually Steve wasn’t to found of cigarette but he took one occasionally when he was stressed out, seriously he was going to have grey hairs by the age of thirty.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 6, 2008 17:31:46 GMT
"What are you doing!?" Marisa shrieked out of anger. "You never told me you smoked." she said as she stood up and in an angry stride she was over by Steve with a very unflattering pout on her face. "I don't like it when people smoke." She said with a frown not even looking at him. She turned around so her back was facing him.
She wasn't sad anymore she was angry very angry. And she couldn't help it all of her memories good but mostly bad were all coming back and it made her feel yucky and angry.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 6, 2008 17:37:43 GMT
Hearing a familiar shriek, Steve closed his eyes for a moment and cursed under his breath before opening them again and forcing a smile on his face “Marisa, it’s nice to see you too!” He told her in a bored tone before dropping his smile and taking one last inhale of the cigarette before pushing it into a tree and dropping it. “I do it when I’m stressed and I honestly don’t give a damn what you or other people like or don’t” Steve said honestly and gave her a shrug.
Continuing to lean back on the tree he stared at the angry woman with an amused expression “I can see your angry. Wow, that’s a nice change considering your always depressed and sad. You suit anger!” He said still maintaining his grin.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 6, 2008 17:44:48 GMT
She turned to him and she looked hostile.No one ever saw this side of little sweet sensitive Marisa except herself and deep inside she felt bad for Steve.
"Just because your parents didn't abandon you at the age of 11, your husband or wife didn't cheat on you, you didn't get pregnant by some other stranger you didn't know and your fake father didn't die doesn't mean you have to rub it in me pretty little face." She screamed as loud as she could at Steve. "Oh and the only thing that you cared about probably didn't get taken away by someone who isn't even his father!" She said surprisingly louder than the others though it didn't seem possible.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 6, 2008 17:53:25 GMT
Steve smirked at her as she looked at him. Taking a step closer to her he had a feeling that this was not over actually he knew this was the beginning of her little tantrum.
“No, I didn’t get abandoned by my parents, I got bullied by them, my girlfriend didn’t cheat on me she left and broke my heart, I’m pretty sure I got her pregnant too and I wish my father was dead but I am not rubbing any of the things that happened to you in your face, your rubbing them in mine!” Steve said calmly and stood in front of Marisa placing his two hands firmly on her arms “Calm down, Marisa!” He told her sternly and looked directly at her.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 6, 2008 21:26:22 GMT
Her shoulders started to shake as warm tears rolled down her face. "I don't know what it is all of these feelings are coming back and I've been able to ignore them for years but I can't anymore. She said looking into Steve's eyes. "I don't understand it!" She said calming down a bit.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 7, 2008 20:45:34 GMT
Steve rubbed her arms gently trying his best to calm her down, "Hey, don't cry." He said softly and wiped away her tears with his thumb. Sighing softly, he really was a softie when it came to women and tears "Everything's going to be fine. Believe me!" Steve said still trying to comfort her the best he could.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 7, 2008 20:49:34 GMT
"That's what you think!" She said crying harder. "You don't have to live with it. My parents never wanted me." she said with a shaky voice. "Never." She almost shouted. "They just left while I was at Hogwarts because they thought it was the easiest thing to do."
This part of her life hit her hard and she felt like she was nothing after that. "And my son is the most wonderful mistake in my life and he is going to get taken away from me! The only thing I care about." She said with heavy tears her mascara was running and she was a mess.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 7, 2008 21:04:36 GMT
"Your parents are gone! There is no point crying over spilled milk! Don't cry over the past, it's a waste of good time!" Steve told her calmly and brutally honest. He lost a lot of people in his life and he had only cried over one and that was only a one time thing, after that he never cried or acted saddened by it, there really was no point. "Then fight for your son Marisa! You just can't let him be taken away from you! Your his mother and you have every right to be with him so just fight for Merlin's sake!" Steve said shaking her gently.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 7, 2008 21:11:02 GMT
She backed off and closed her eyes. "It's not easy to forget." She said with a sigh as she looked off into the distance. "It's not that easy. He doesn't know." She said with a small sigh. She was losing it. She found herself praying at that point in her head so it wasn't obvious to Steve.
"I'm not a fighter." She said as she turned to him. "I'm not strong enough. Look at me." She said to him. "LOOK AT ME!" She said as ahe pointed to her face. "I don't fight!"
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 7, 2008 21:42:04 GMT
Steve ignored everything she just said and focused on one thing. "Then he obviously doesn't mean that much to you if you wont fight for him! It doesn't matter if you are a fighter or not! It matters that you are his mother and if you really want him then you will have to fight whether you like it or not!" He shouted at her and the shook his head as she screamed at him "I AM!" Steve shouted back in frustration "And you will fight!" He demanded pointing a finger at her.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 7, 2008 23:01:30 GMT
She backed down a bit. She fell to her knees and put her head into her hands and cried. "What have I become?" She whispered. "I'm a monster." She said to herself aloud. She cried for a couple of minutes then got up and stared into the distance. "I'm a monster." She whispered.
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Post by Steve Higgs on Sept 7, 2008 23:09:08 GMT
Steve shook his head at Marisa break down and then he let her cryfor a few moments before taking her hands and pulling her up, "You're not a monster. just an emotional wreck!" He said calmly and he then look around. "Maybe i should get you back. It's late and you're getting more emtional by the second." Steve told her beginning to walk.
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Post by Marisa Brant on Sept 7, 2008 23:12:46 GMT
An emotional wreck great she was never like that as a child. She wiped her tears. "I'm sorry I don't know what the matter is with me." She said with a sigh. She couldn't believe herself she was awful. She was nobody anyone wanted to be around. She was sensitive and very prone to crying and she shouted a lot now. The divorce with Aaron was nasty and it put an even larger dent in her.
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